Anxiety

Well, the good news is that we visited a different vet who believes that Alexander will do well as a tripawd. He is of good weight, his joints are good, but most of all his drive for life is strong.

The surgery is scheduled for Tuesday, they will take him in, do the surgery, keep him for at least two nights to monitor his pain and stuff. If all goes well, then he will be coming home Thursday.

I know that we are making the right decision for him, it’s either his leg or his life, but I keep having anxiety attacks! I just start thinking about the complications from surgery, how it is going to be so startling to see him afterward, my baby in pain and everything else!

Of course the vets have to tell you all the risks for surgery, but all I hear is, “blah, blah, heart failure, blah blah, pneumonia, blah blah, bleeding” Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh!!

The vets also commented a couple of times that he needs to stay calm so as not to tear his stitches and other tissues, of course it makes me happy they think he’ll be so go, go, go, but now it makes me nervous he could hurt himself.

I am trying to prepare myself for the shock of seeing it for the first time, but I’m not sure you can do that. I am also trying to prepare myself for bringing home a doped up, in pain 165lb dog…..good thing my husband isn’t small…..

Well, I’ve vented enough. I hate that this is happening to him, I am so angry that he has to go through this, but I know that it is not as bad for them as it is us…..I just hate it.